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TF01
3,For Love Of Julia - Pt 2
4,by Sylvia Billings
The next two days passed quickly and soon he was settled into the
apartment. Cathy had been surprised when he told her about the
arrangements he had made, and also pleased.
Once Cathy was on leave they spent all their time together. The two
weeks passed all to quickly and soon it was time for them to report
to Headquarters. Both were excited, not only about the prospect of
seeing each other more, but also their new assignments.
The first surprise Kirk received when he was aboard was that the
ship's surgeon would be leaving shortly after Captain Pike, and that
his replacement would be Doctor Leonard McCoy. Kirk immediately
recognised the name, he had been teaching at the Academy shortly
before Kirk graduated.
The second was meeting the Enterprise's Science Officer. As he had
told Admiral Wrenbury, he had met very few Vulcans. He knew them to
be a race of people dedicated to logic, but he hadn't been prepared
for their severe facial expression. This one, Spock, acknowledged
the introduction and that was all. There was no show of warmth or
the friendliness of the other officers he had been introduced to.
The first few days on board were spent getting used to the ship and
where everything was. He hadn't realised just how large a Starship
really was until now. To his credit, he only got lost once during
this time.
The first two missions were fairly routine and he quickly learnt his
job as First Officer, although he still puzzled over the fact that
Spock had been passed over when they needed a new Captain. It was
obvious, even to him only recently come aboard, that Spock would make
an excellent Captain. Still decisions like these were best left to
the experts and they must have their reasons.
The only thing which marred these missions was the fact that both he
and Cathy were having to share cabins with other crewmembers, which
made meeting each other difficult, except for the very public rec
rooms. They coped, knowing that Kirk would soon be Captain and have
his own cabin, which would be much more private.
During his preliminary period as First Officer he found himself
working closely with Mr. Spock, and although they said little to each
other, Spock only speaking when actually spoken to, Kirk felt that
they were gradually beginning to have a mutual respect for each
other.
To begin with this rather surprised him, because as he had told
Admiral Wrenbury, he had expected Mr. Spock to be invaluable to him
when he was Captain, he hadn't really considered his own reactions
and feelings towards the Vulcan being anything other than - polite.
Now the time was rapidly approaching when Captain Pike was to leave
the ship, and Kirk was to assume Command. He was honest enough with
himself to be - apprehensive. He knew that no matter how much advice
he took, or how close he came to the other officers under his
command, any final decisions to be made would be his and his alone,
whether they be right or wrong. Command of a Starship he decided was
one of the loneliest places in the galaxy, but one he would not
change for any other.
The actual handing over of Command was a simple matter, both he and
Captain Pike beamed down to Headquarters, and a few hours later he
was beamed back on board as Captain of the Enterprise.
One thing which had both surprised and pleased him was that before he
left the Enterprise, Captain Pike received a small Vulcan artifact
from Mr. Spock. It was nothing elaborate, but showed Kirk another
side of Spock's character he hadn't thought existed.
***
Now he stood alone in the cabin - his cabin. He looked around, it
looked very bare, still he reasoned he would soon have it looking
more... lived in. At that moment his door buzzer sounded, he turned,
"Come in," he called. Standing in the open doorway was Cathy. He
held out his hand to her, "Not only, come in, come here."
She walked slowly towards him, her hands behind her back. When she
was within arms reach she brought forward a bottle of his favourite
Brandy. "To celebrate," was all she said.
He took the bottle from her, putting it onto his desk, then swept her
into his arms in a long tender embrace. At last he released her,
"Although I love your gift, I can think of otherways we can
celebrate."
"I know, Jim, but I have to be back on duty in half an hour, and good
things should never be rushed. Maybe later, when we are off duty, we
can celebrate... properly."
He smiled at her, "Then let's drink to that." He picked up the
bottle, opened it and getting two glasses he poured them both some of
the golden liquid.
They raised their glasses and as they touched, Cathy said, "Tonight,"
and drank some of the Brandy. Kirk did the same, then moving to a
chair sat down and indicated the seat near to him. Instead Cathy
moved and sat on the floor, resting her head on his knees. They sat
there in companionable silence until their drinks were gone. Then
she rose and moved towards the door. He followed her, and as she
made to leave, whispered in her ear, "Tonight," then with a quick
kiss she was gone.
During the next few months, this became the pattern of their lives.
Every possible chance they had they were together. Senior crew
members soon knew of their attachment to each other, and so long as
this didn't interfere with the safety and running of the ship, said
nothing.
Kirk at first found it difficult to adjust to the new responsibility
of complete command, but found - to his surprise - that Spock was
more than willing to offer help and assistance whenever asked. To
begin with Kirk had hesitated to ask for his advice, feeling it made
him look too vulnerable and possibly not really ready to be Captain.
Then had come the day a major decision had to be made and which could
cost lives.
He paced his cabin, 'What should he do?' At that moment the buzzer
on his cabin door sounded. "Come in," he called, expecting Cathy,
and was surprised when he saw his First Officer standing there.
"Yes, Mr. Spock?"
For a moment the Vulcan stood there, then said quietly, "Captain... I
do not wish to intrude... but I have a suggestion regarding Mr.
Mitchell."
Kirk wanted to leap at the chance to discuss this matter, after all
the Vulcan had made the first move, but he said, "Sit down Mr. Spock,
let's hear what you have to say."
It was some twenty minutes later that they left the cabin. Kirk knew
Spock was correct, it was the only logical answer, but still he felt
uneasy, afterall he and Gary had been friends for so long, and to
just maroon him down there...
***
Sometime later he lay in his cabin, thinking over the last few days.
He knew Spock had been right, but it still hurt to know he had killed
his friend, even though it had been to save himself. He got up and
moved towards the door, as he opened it to leave, he bumped into his
First Officer, about to activate the buzzer. "Spock! Did you want
me?"
"Yes, Captain."
Kirk waited for him to continue, when he did it wasn't what the
Captain had expected. "Sir, do you play chess?"
"Chess?"
"Yes, Sir."
"Well... yes, but why do you ask?"
"It occurs to me that maybe you need... a diversion... something to
take your mind off the recent events. I thought you may wish to join
me in a game of chess... if you would rather not I.."
Kirk quickly interrupted, "Thank you Mr. Spock, I'll be delighted to
accept." As they left the cabin and made their way towards one of
the rec rooms, Kirk continued, "You must have other chess partners,
won't they mind my stepping in?"
"No, Captain." At Kirk's surprised look, Spock elaborated, "My only
partner is the computer... and that I programmed myself."
Kirk smiled, "I see... you need a more stimulating challenger. I
hope I can fit the bill."
This game was to be the first of many over the coming months, and it
was through these that both men got to know and appreciate each
others value. Not only as chess opponents, but fellow officers...
and friends.
Spock had always been reserved with the crew and had never really
felt at ease with them or the previous Captain, but now he began to
feel less alone and more accepted, not only by the Captain but
everyone aboard.
***
The weeks went by and eventually Doctor Piper retired from active
service in Starfleet, and Doctor McCoy took up his appointment aboard
the Enterprise.
When Doctor McCoy beamed aboard he was pleased to see at least two
faces he knew, the Captain and also the Chief Engineer.
Once the formalities were over the new Doctor went with the Captain
and First Officer to the Captain's cabin for a quiet drink of
welcome.
"You've come a long way, Captain, since we last met."
"Yes, I guess I have, Doctor," replied Kirk. "What do you think of
the ship, and especially sickbay?"
"Haven't seen much of either, but they sure seem okay."
"Most up-to-date Sickbay in the Fleet, Doctor," said Kirk, "Your
staff is also most efficient."
"I'm sure they are, but when I've seen them in action, I'll know
more."
Kirk smiled, then looked at Spock. "Mr. Spock, you haven't said
much."
"What do you wish me to say, Sir? I have welcomed the Doctor aboard,
was there something I forgot?"
"No, no, you did everything quite correct, but..." he let his words
trail off.
The Vulcan looked from one man to the other with a puzzled look on
his face. "If you will excuse me, Captain, Doctor, I have some work
which needs my attention."
"Of course, Mr. Spock. I'll be along shortly."
After he left, McCoy looked at Kirk. "Not exactly brimming over with
words of welcome, is he?"
"Believe me it isn't you personally, he is like that with everyone,
until he really gets to know them better."
"Hmmmmm, we'll see."
Kirk looked at the older man, "Doctor, I think I should tell you this
ship runs very efficiently, and a good deal of this efficiency is due
to Mr. Spock. I do not want - or expect - this to change. Do you
understand?"
"Yes, Sir, I understand... but... your First Officer will sure take
some getting used to."
"You're right, Doctor, he sure does, but believe me the effort is
well worth it."
"I believe you, Captain," the blue eyes twinkled as he added, "How
long did it take you... to get him on your side?"
Kirk laughed, "Too long, Doctor."
The two men left the cabin, still laughing and talking. As they
entered the turbo-lift McCoy asked, "Captain, I hate to ask this, but
what is the Head Nurse called? I know she was introduced, but names
never were my strong point."
"Your head nurse is Christine Chapel, and the new female Doctor is
Cathy Lennox." He paused, not really knowing whether to inform the
new Doctor of his relationship with Cathy or not. He decided he
would, before someone else gave him the details. "Doctor... I...
feel I should tell you something, but I'm not quite sure how to
begin." McCoy stood silently waiting for him to continue. Finally
he said, "It's about Cathy... Doctor Lennox." Still McCoy said
nothing. "We have... we... we're in love and spend as much time
together as we can."
McCoy now spoke, "You didn't have to tell me, but I'm glad you felt
you could."
The lift stopped at the bridge, Kirk smiled at McCoy, "Care for a
quick inspection tour?"
"Why not, gotta get to know who'll be driving this ship."
McCoy became a familiar sight on the ship and his sharp tongue and
whiplash retorts were soon felt by everyone, from the Captain down to
the youngest Yeoman, although there was never any intended malice in
anything he said he had been in trouble on more than one occasion.
It didn't take him long to realise he could bait the First Officer,
or for that matter for the First Officer to retaliate. Their verbal
sparring matches were soon part of the everyday running of the ship,
and enjoyed by both.
The following months passed quickly, several missions were completed
successfully and everything just seemed to fall into place, and run
with smooth efficiency.
***
About eight months after he had joined the ship McCoy walked into
Sickbay one morning to find Cathy waiting for him. "You're early
today, Cathy. Couldn't you sleep?"
"Actually, no, I couldn't, Doctor."
"Why, something the matter?" When she didn't reply, he asked,
"Cathy, is it Jim... Captain Kirk?"
She looked up at him, "Yes... in a way."
"Can you tell me about it?"
"I have to tell someone, and you're the closest person to me aboard -
next to Jim." She stopped, and he waited for her to continue, at
last she said, "I want to leave the ship, at the next Starbase."
This certainly wasn't what McCoy had been expecting her to say, and
the surprise showed on his face. "Why, Cathy... why?"
"Can't you guess? I'm having his baby."
"Cathy, I won't lecture you, but how could you have been so silly as
to let it happen?"
"I don't know, Doctor, I really don't. I guess I must have forgotten
an injection somewhere."
A sudden thought crossed McCoy's mind, "Does Jim know?"
"No, and he mustn't."
"WHAT??"
"Don't shout at me, Doctor McCoy. I said Jim must never know."
"Why, for gods sake? He is the child's father."
"Don't you think I know that and that's why he must never know."
McCoy still looked puzzled. "Doctor, you know him well, almost as
well as I do. If I told him his first reaction would be marriage,
then he would give up the Space Service to settle down on some base
or other, so we could all be together, and it wouldn't be long before
he'd become restless for active duty and that would be the beginning
of the end. When the baby arrived that would probably be a slight
respite, but it wouldn't last. No, Doctor, not telling him is the
only way, and before you ask, I won't have this baby terminated.
Believe it or not I find I really want this child."
"How will you manage? When the child comes I mean."
"I'm not without means, Doctor, and after a little while I'll get
someone to help with the baby and then I'll be able to set up in
practice on my own. That won't be the hard part. Telling Jim I'm
leaving and not telling him why... that'll be the hardest."
"Yes, I can see that. He'll be hurt you know... deeply hurt."
"Yes, I know, and thanks."
"For what?"
"Not offering to tell him. I'd have had to turn you down if you
had."
"Cathy, you are the one to tell him, no one else. I'll just be
around to pick up the pieces and try and put them together again."
She gave him a brief smile, then said quietly, "I don't envy you,
Doctor, I truly don't." Getting up she made to leave.
"Cathy?"
"Yes, Doctor."
"When will you tell him?"
"Later, when we're off duty. There's no sense in delaying it, is
there?"
"No, Cathy, none at all, and good luck."
***
Later that day, Cathy sat in Kirk's cabin, waiting for him to come
off duty. She had been planning all day what she intended to say,
but now as the time drew closer for him to arrive her nerves began to
grow more and more on edge.
The cabin door opened and Kirk entered. He saw her at once and moved
across the cabin and swept her into his arms. She didn't resist his
kiss, but neither did she respond. Letting her go he looked at her,
"What's wrong, Cathy?"
She did not reply, all her carefully planned speech now seemed wrong.
Standing there looking at him, she wondered if she could go through
with it, but deep inside her she knew she would... she had to, for
all their sakes.
Taking her hand he led her back to her chair. Gently he said, "It
can't be so bad, Cathy, please tell me what's wrong."
She knew it was now or never, so taking a deep breath she said, "I'm
leaving, Jim."
"Leaving?"
"Yes. The ship, Starfleet, everything."
For a moment he was too stunned to reply. At last he asked, "Why,
Cathy?"
Now she had started to tell him, the words just seemed to tumble out.
"I've found this life isn't for me. I want a steady regular job with
people who have normal illnesses and injuries..."
"But you knew what it would be like, you'd been aboard a Starship
before."
"I know, but we all change, and now I want other things."
"And what about me? What about what I want?"
"You'll survive, Jim. This is where you belong... I don't."
"I thought you loved me, Cathy."
"I do Jim, but not enough to give up what I want from life. I
thought I did, but I don't. Call me selfish if you like, but I can't
give up what I feel is right for me... not even for you." The
intense hurt in his eyes cut through her like a knife, and she almost
weakened, but knew she must finish. "I've already told Doctor McCoy,
and he says I can leave at the next Starbase."
"I see! All cut and dried before you even see me. Didn't Bones
object?"
"Yes, but when he saw my mind was made up he agreed it was for the
best."
Suddenly Kirk was the efficient Captain, no longer the hurt
bewildered man of moments ago. "Very well, as you've made up your
mind, there is very little more I can add. If you will put your
request in writing, I will see it goes through the proper channels,
so you will be free to leave at the next Starbase we call at."
Getting up she crossed to the door, as she was about to leave she
turned, "Very well... Captain. And thank you - for not making things
difficult for me."
He simply inclined his head, not daring to let himself reply, as the
door closed behind her, he slumped into the chair she had so recently
vacated. Now she had left he let himself really take in all that had
happened during the past few minutes. He felt his world had fallen
apart around him, and silently the tears filled his eyes.
***
No one saw the Captain until the following day, when he came on duty.
When he did it was obvious to them all it was not the same man who
had left the bridge the previous day. Outwardly he looked no
different, but somehow the laughter had gone from his eyes.
It wasn't long before McCoy came onto the bridge, he moved over to
the Captain's chair. "You okay, Jim?" He asked in a quiet voice.
"Perfectly, why shouldn't I be?"
"Jim, I do know about Cathy, remember. If I can help in any way I'm
always there."
"If you know, why don't you just leave me alone and go back to
sickbay?"
Turning on his heel, McCoy left without another word.
As the doors of the lift closed behind McCoy, Kirk swung the command
chair around, anguish in his eyes. 'Damn!' He thought, 'Bones was
only trying to help. It isn't his fault, so why did I blame him?'
He sat there a few moments more, then getting up crossed to his First
Officer, "Spock, if I'm needed, I'll be in sickbay, you have the
con."
"Yes, Sir," replied the Vulcan.
He made his way towards sickbay, only to realise as he entered, Cathy
should be there. As he walked in, McCoy looked up from his work at
the other side of the room, then studiously returned his attention to
what he was doing. Kirk walked towards him, noticing as he did so,
Cathy wasn't there. He stopped at the side of the Doctor, who still
continued to work. "Doctor... I.."
McCoy looked up, "Come into my office, Captain." Kirk smiled his
thanks.
Once inside the office McCoy sat behind his desk, watching as Kirk
began to pace backwards and forwards. Finally he stopped and looked
at the Doctor.
"Bones, I'm sorry... for the way I spoke to you on the bridge."
"I understand, Jim."
Kirk thought for a moment before replying. "Yes, I guess you do.
But why Bones, what happened to change her? I thought she was happy,
so what went wrong?"
"Jim I can't give you the answers you want. Who knows how a woman
thinks?"
"Did she tell you why she wants to leave? She just said she now
feels this isn't what she wants." McCoy just nodded, which Kirk took
to be him agreeing with what he'd just said. "I just don't
understand. I tried all night to think what had made her change, but
I still don't know."
"Jim, I know right now it hurts, but please try not to dwell on the
rights and wrongs of it. It'll be hard, but time is a great healer."
"I know you mean well, but right now I feel... dead inside."
Abruptly he asked, "Where is Cathy?"
"I changed her shifts, you won't be seeing much of her now... I
thought this would be best. If I was wrong..."
"No, Bones, you weren't... thanks."
McCoy got up from his chair, moved over to the cupboard and removed
two glasses and some Brandy. Pouring some into each glass he handed
Kirk one with a, "Here, drink this."
"Bones, I'm still on duty."
"Doctor's orders... medicinal purposes."
Kirk smiled, "For you too, Doctor?"
"Yes, for me too," replied McCoy.
***
During the next two and a half weeks that it took to reach the
Starbase things ran smoother than anyone had expected, once news had
leaked that Cathy Lennox was leaving, this was mainly due to McCoy's
changing of her duty periods, thereby ensuring she and the Captain
hardly met.
At first Kirk was quiet and withdrawn, but gradually after a few days
seemed to brighten and even make subtle suggestions to the more
senior members of his female crew. For his part it was a way to
boost his pride, although with one exception all suggestions were
politely but firmly turned down, which didn't unduly surprise him.
Uhura was the only one who did actually accept his invitation to
dinner in his cabin, knowing how much he had been hurt by Cathy's
decision to leave, and also because in her own way she was fond of
the Captain.
Finally the Starbase was within scanner range, and Kirk was surprised
when Doctor McCoy informed him he was required in Sickbay.
When he arrived he found Cathy waiting for him. He felt his heart
pound in his chest, 'Maybe she had changed her mind.' He realised
she was speaking to him.
"Jim, I felt I wanted to say a private goodbye to you. I promise I
won't make it difficult."
"I hoped when I saw you, you'd changed your mind."
"No, Jim, I'm sorry I've caused so much hurt, but it really is for
the best."
"I just don't understand... what went wrong. I don't think I'll ever
understand."
"Believe me, Jim, one day you will." She reached up and kissed him
lightly on the cheek, "Goodbye Jim, don't think too badly of me."
Before he could do or say anymore, she was gone from Sickbay.
He did not see her again before she left the ship.
***
Gradually as the months passed he became more immersed in his work,
and as McCoy had predicted the hurt grew less. During this time
Uhura was a great help, and she and the Captain spent a number of
pleasant evenings together, although each was wise enough not to let
this situation develop into anything serious.
***
It had been almost four years since Cathy had left the ship when they
went into orbit around Minerva, a planet in one of the more peaceful
sections of the galaxy. They were here for a few days R & R, and to
pick up new crewmembers.
Unbeknown to Kirk, Doctor McCoy had kept in touch with Cathy, and
knew that she now had a young daughter, and also that she lived and
worked on Minerva. The Doctor now called the Captain to his
quarters. When he arrived McCoy came straight to the point.
"Jim, I've something to tell you."
"That sounds serious."
"I guess in a way it is."
"Okay... I'm listening."
"You remember Cathy Lennox?"
Kirk's face was suddenly serious, "Yes, Bones. Why?"
"I know it's none of my business really but, do you still... feel the
way you did about her?"
Kirk paused before answering, then said, "I guess I still think of
her with... affection, but... no, I'm not still so desperately in
love with her. What's all this leading up to?"
"She lives and works on Minerva!"
"How do you know?"
"I've kept in touch from time to time. I guess I felt a fatherly
affection towards her."
"What made you decide to tell me?"
"I thought you'd like to know... even stop by and say 'Hello' maybe."
"No, I don't think so, Bones, but thanks for telling me."
"Why not, Jim. You've just said you don't love her anymore, so
what're you afraid of?"
"I'm not afraid of anything, besides, what makes you think she'd want
to see me?"
"Because I've already asked."
"And does she?"
"Yes, Jim, she does."
"Then I guess I'll meet her." He got up to leave, "Was there
anything else, Bones?"
McCoy desperately wanted to tell him about the child, but simply
said, "No, that's all, Jim."
***
A few hours later found Kirk and McCoy standing outside a medium
sized house at the edge of the business area of the capital city. On
the front lawn they saw several toys and play things.
"Are you sure this is the place?" Kirk asked, eyeing the toys.
"Yes, I'm sure."
At that moment the door opened and Cathy came down the path towards
them, followed by a young child.
"Doctor McCoy... Jim, it's good to see you both. Come on in. Oh,
this is Julia," she added, as she bent down to pick up the child.
They were soon sitting in a comfortably furnished room, and the child
was happily playing on the floor near them. At first the
conversation was a little strained but gradually things eased, and
they were talking quite naturally. Finally Kirk asked the inevitable
question. "Whose little girl is Julia?"
Silence descended, then Cathy said, "She's my daughter, Jim."
"Oh! I didn't realise... that you were married, I mean."
"Why should you, it has been some time since we last met."
"Where's your husband... will we get to meet him?"
"No, he's away... in the Space Service."
"Starfleet?"
"No... not Starfleet."
McCoy interrupted, "Cathy, I hate to ask, but could I have some more
coffee, d'you think?"
Smiling gratefully at him, she said, "Of course, Doctor. More for
you too Jim?"
"Yes, please."
Once more the conversation turned to other things, and for one Cathy
was thankful.
They stayed talking about the old times and generally making small
talk for about another hour, then McCoy suggested they should be
leaving.
As they were about to go, Kirk suddenly said, "Cathy, would it be
okay if we kept in touch? If you'd rather we didn't I'll quite
understand."
She paused, then said, "Sure, Jim... whenever you have time."
McCoy smiled at her over Kirk's shoulder, a smile she acknowledged,
and one Kirk knew nothing of.
***
Over the next few years whenever they were in this section of the
galaxy, Kirk and McCoy would visit Cathy, and in this way
unknowingly, Kirk saw his daughter growing up.
It had been over ten years since he had first seen Julia that Kirk
suddenly questioned McCoy about the girls father, and his
whereabouts, as they had never seen him on any of their visits.
"Jim, it really is none of my business, but I don't think Cathy sees
him all that often." At Kirk's look of concern, McCoy added, "She's
quite happy with the arrangement, don't worry."
"But what about Julia, what sort of life is it for her without a
father around?"
"Think Jim, when you've seen her does she look as if she lacks for
anything?"
"Well... no."
"While we're talking about Julia, there's something else, she wants
to enter Starfleet Academy in two years, when she is sixteen."
"Do they take girls that young?"
"As a kind of junior cadet, they still study and do mainly school
work, then graduate to the normal Academy classes at 18."
"You seem to know a lot about this." McCoy now looked a little
sheepish, and Kirk was quick to notice. "Come on Bones, out with
it."
"Well... like you, I've sort of kept an eye on them both... and when
Julia said she'd like to join the Academy... I made a few enquiries."
"That's fair enough, but why did you suddenly mention it now?"
"Cathy wants to see you, before she decides if a Starfleet career
will be good for Julia."
"Why me? You've made all the enquiries for her, so why me, do you
know?"
"Jim, why don't you ask her yourself?"
"We're not due in that area for sometime yet... I'll put through a
call on subspace..."
"NO!" McCoy said it much more forcefully than he intended.
Kirk was somewhat taken aback, "Why so vehement, Bones?"
"I just think you should take some leave and go and see her... I
can't say more... but believe me it is important."
***
Kirk now stood at the Space Port, wondering how he had let himself be
persuaded to come to Minerva to see Cathy. Wondering even more just
what strings McCoy had pulled to get him the leave at such short
notice.
It wasn't many minutes before he saw Cathy coming towards him
accompanied by a pretty young girl, who Kirk knew was Julia, although
he had not seen her for several years. As they drew nearer he saw
that while Cathy smiled at him, her daughter did not.
"Hello, Cathy... Julia, it is good to see you both again."
"Hello, Jim. Been waiting long?"
"No... only a few moments."
So far the girl had not even acknowledged his presence, but he said
nothing.
They left the Space Port and made their way to Cathy's air-car for
the short journey to her home.
After they arrived, Kirk had settled in and a meal had been prepared
and eaten, now he sat on the swing-chair looking out over fields at
the rear of the house. Presently Cathy came to join him.
"Reminds me of a long time ago, when we sat and watched the sunset
once before."
"Some things change, Jim... even sunsets."
"I guess so." They sat in silence for a few minutes then Kirk asked,
"Why did Bones want me to come here?"
"Didn't you want to visit an old friend?"
"You know I'm always happy to see you, but there has to be a reason.
He said it was something to do with Julia wanting to join Starfleet."
"That's correct."
"So what's the problem?"
"As her father is still alive his signature as well as my own is
required on her enrolment application, as she wants to enter so
young."
"Oh, I see, and you don't know where he is?"
"No, that's not the problem. I know exactly where he is."
"Then I don't understand."
"I'm not going about this too well. Jim, will you promise not to
interrupt me, and I'll begin at the beginning?"
"Sounds serious, but yes, you have my word."
She took a deep breath, "You know when I left the Enterprise, all
those years ago?" Kirk nodded, "Well the reasons I gave weren't
true. I didn't want to lead a life of my own, I loved you and I
wanted to be with you, but I couldn't."
"I still don't..."
"Jim, you promised..." He lapsed back into silence as she continued.
"You see Jim, I left because I was having your child. Had I told
you, you would have wanted marriage and all that goes with it, and I
knew eventually it would only end in heartbreak... so I left, telling
you what I did."
It took a few moments to realise what Cathy had just said, but when
he did finally speak he said, "Then... Julia is... my daughter?"
"Yes, Jim."
"Cathy... I know you feel you did the right thing... but I had a
right to know." A thought occurred to him, "Bones knew, didn't he?"
She nodded her head, "Yes," she whispered. She moved her hand to
touch his arm, but he drew away.
"No. I need time to think... Have you told Julia?"
"Yes, last evening."
He now understood the girl's attitude at the Space Port. "Where is
she now? I want to talk with her."
"She's in her room... waiting."
He got up without another word, and entered the house, going straight
to the girl's room. He knocked and waited to be admitted.
What was said in that room Cathy never knew, but when he returned to
her some two hours later, he was a different man to the one who had
left earlier.
"Cathy... I guess I still feel hurt that you didn't tell me. Bones I
know was bound by his oath as a Doctor, not to reveal what a patient
tells him. You know it feels... kinda strange realising you're a
father with a grown up daughter... a beautiful daughter I might add."
"Jim... can you ever forgive me?"
He now reached over and took her hand. "Yes, I forgive you... after
all, with Bones' help I did see her quite often while she was growing
up... so I really had the best of both worlds." He stopped and
looked directly at Cathy, "What happens now?"...
***
...He felt someone touch his arm, and was suddenly brought out of his
reverie and back to the present. He looked at McCoy and smiled.
"I'm okay, Bones. I know now what I have to do."
"You've made up your mind... about the promotion, I mean?"
"Yes. You know my daughter is here... at Headquarters ready to begin
her serious training."
"Yeah, I know."
"I intend to see her... talk over not only her future but my own."
"But why Jim, if you've made up your mind?"
"Because my future is bound up with hers. Her mother is married now
and has her own life, and I'm happy for her, but now it is my turn to
look out for our daughter."
McCoy shrugged, "Yes, I guess so, but I hope you won't be hurt
again."
"That's an odd thing to say. Why should I be hurt?"
"I don't know, but be careful what you say to her."
Kirk got up, "I'll be careful. Coming, Bones?"
"Not this time. I'll see you later."
Kirk smiled again. "Sure... see you later," with that he began to
walk back towards the main building.
***
It wasn't until the next day that the two men met up again.
McCoy was the first to speak. "How'd it go... with Julia?"
"Fine. We decided I shouldn't accept the promotion, but stay a
Captain. As Julia said, this way she at least stands a better chance
of being given assignments on her own merit and not because her
father pulled a few strings."
"Would you have 'pulled strings', Jim?"
"I don't honestly know, maybe, if the mission was dangerous I'd try
and be objective, but I guess... yes, maybe I would've tried to keep
her out of danger."
"Then I think you've made the wisest decision. Everyone aboard will
be pleased, I know that... well maybe not Sulu quite so much as the
others."
"That's gratifying... to know how I'd be missed." He stopped then
said, "Why not Sulu?"
"He's making book on who would be the next Captain, and it's not
really that gratifying," he paused at Kirk's quizzical look, "It is
after all... better the devil you know."
At this Kirk laughed uproariously.
***